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The Chickens Are Crying…Eat More Beef!

Photo: Pastor Susan came all the way from a village to deliver gifts the day we were leaving!
She brought a watermelon, a piece of cloth for Abide International Missionary Victor Campbell and a chicken! We love chicken!

Dear Friend,

“I thank my God every time I remember you. In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now…” Philippians 1:3-5

Because I am supported totally by your gifts & kindness; I thank God for you daily, always remember you in my prayers, and want you to see how your love, your prayers and gifts have provided so very much to so very many around the world!

We ate lots and lots of chicken during our time in Tanzania this past May. It was our main source of protein, other than chicken eggs while we were there.

It seemed as if we could almost hear the chickens on the side of the roads screaming from their cages,  “Eat More Beef!”

The last hamburger and Big Mac we saw was at the McDonald’s in the Amsterdam airport. I have to admit the first place I went when I got back was to get my favorite Jr. Whataburger with Mayo, Mustard and Onions!

Our first two weeks were packed full of teaching, ministry and fellowship with over 200 women, infants and toddlers in attendance!

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I pray that your love will overflow more and more, and that you will keep on growing in knowledge and understanding. For I want you to understand what really matters, so that you may live pure and blameless lives until the day of Christ’s return. May you always be filled with the fruit of your salvation—the righteous character produced in your life by Jesus Christ[a]—for this will bring much glory and praise to God.” Philippians 1:9-11

We were also able to visit several churches in the city and nearby villages where we shared  soccer balls, candy, testimonies and preached the gospel. During one one of these trips 15-20 men and women came forward for to make a commitment to Jesus Christ and to receive prayers for healing.
This was a birthday party. Denise made Pastor Chambo his favorite lemon cake which he cut into very tiny pieces. We were then given the opportunity to “dance” for a piece, which we all did. We only got one itty bitty piece. The rest is all for the birthday boy or girl!
Susan is a pastor of a church in a  village near Mwanza. She invited us to come share one Sunday morning at the 10:00 a.m. service. They begin their Sunday services at
7:00 a.m. with intercessory prayer!

When we were there her church is very modest. Recent winds and rains have compromised the plastic roof.

During the week Pastor Susan disciples women, provides shelter to the homeless, disciples other ministers and raises money to help poor women buy feminine hygiene products.
This is now the beginnings of Pastor Susan’s New Church Building!
Thank you Abide International Ministries!
Pictured below are just a few of the hundreds of pictures taken!
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Thanking God for Tanzanian Women Leaders

2019 UHURU Women Leader’s PowWow, Mwanza Tanzania

Our women’s leadership conference took place at the home of Glen & Denise Ellerbe, founders of Abide International Ministries. The first week we hosted 50 women leaders who gathered for a time of singing, teaching, crafting, fellowship and discipleship. Pictured here the women are working on their Freedom Discipleship Books.

We were also invited to teach at an annual women’s conference that is held at one of the local churches. The pastor of the church is a Bishop over 62 pastors and hosts an annual women’s conference. Denise, Beverly and I were invited to teach, minister and share our PowWow books with over 100 women who attended along with about 20-30 children. They would then be able to go back to their respective churches and communities and share what they learned.

At the end of both weeks the women washed each others feet and prayed for one another. It was a sweet time of ministry for all of us!
And since I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet,
you ought to wash each other’s feet. John 13:14 NLT
We washed the children’s feet and prayed over them!

“If I then, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also ought to wash each other’s feet. For I have given you an example, that you should do as I have done to you. Most assuredly, I say to you, a servant is not greater than his master; nor is he who is sent greater than he who sent him. If you know these things, blessed are you if you do them.” John 13:13-17

This was especially impactful to these women as many began to weep and release burdens as their Christian sister prayed over and washed their feet.

Every single one of these women work very hard from before sun up until late in the evening. It was a reminder to us all how Jesus, even though he was about to endure a terrible death spent his last evening washing his disciples feet. In spite of our own personal hardships and trials, supporting and loving one another is key to teaching others about Jesus’ love and sacrifice.

The women came out to greet us when we arrived and were singing, dancing and we took part in the celebration doing the same!

Greetings and Goodbyes are very important in the Tanzanian communities. So is singing and dancing. We had a wonderful time of both.

We spoke at and visited several churches on our trip. Two were in a village outside of town. Below is Pastor Susan, one of the pastors of a village church. She attended our leadership PowWow. Although her church is primitive she and her members worship and praise God with so much joy!

Below is a village about two hours outside of Mwanza. The pastor is Pastor John. Many came out to hear us teach on a Friday afternoon and 15-20 villagers gave their lives to the Lord for the first time!

Pastor John’s church was the first tabernacle Abide International Ministries helped to build. A cobra dropped down from one of the rafters as Missionary Glen Ellerbe was holding up the last roof beam! By helping the pastors put up a church building it gives the people somewhere to come in out of the weather as well as help to establish credibility within the villages. Many of them have mosques nearby. Glen and Denise have a burden to distribute Bibles, build tabernacles for new pastors, as well as to disciple and train the men and women leaders God is raising up while there is an open door into this country.

Everyone then who hears these words of mine and does them will be like a wise man who built his house on the rock.

Matthew 7:24
This is on top of the Big Rock with Lake Victoria in the background.

These huge rock formations were all over Mwanza. The scenery is amazing, a supernatural wonder and a place where God is doing amazing things in the earth and people of Tanzania.

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He is not here!

“He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay.” Matt. 28:6

He is not here…

During the course of Jesus’ ministry on earth he encountered many individuals and groups of people; some who were very poor and homeless, others absorbed in themselves declaring their deity and building their kingdoms on earth. There were others who were sick and dying, without anyone caring for them.

As I have traveled to places around the world I have seen both wealth and poverty and the majority of people are living and working toward some sort of purposeful dreams and goals for which they will be remembered by family and friends. The ones who are most hopeful are those who believe in the resurrection of the body and this is what Resurrection Sunday or “Easter Sunday” is all about.

The truth of the matter is on the morning the women mourners came to apply burial ointment to Jesus’s body, they were met with an empty tomb. Suddenly their despair and disappointment was turned into hope and excitement.

“As they entered the tomb, they saw a young man dressed in a white robe sitting on the right side, and they were alarmed. “Don’t be alarmed,” he said. “You are looking for Jesus the Nazarene, who was crucified. He has risen! He is not here. See the place where they laid him. But go, tell his disciples…’” Mark 16:5-7

Jesus came to rescue the perishing, care for the dying, offering hope to those who were hopeless. The disciples hope for an earthly king had been shattered but yet their hopelessness and unbelief at the time didn’t stop Jesus from dying, then rising.

Jesus was dead, buried and in the grave. But, this wasn’t the end of the story or God’s plan for mankind. Resurrection Sunday is not about an empty and final resting place here on earth, it is about an eternal home beyond our earthly understanding and is where Jesus will greet everyone who becomes His disciple, once their physical bodies die.

Christ’s resurrection is a promise for everyone who will believe in the person of Jesus. He isn’t just someone who lived a memorable life, then died and we honor His works and contributions and gifts to mankind. Jesus is risen indeed! He is alive and is in fact God, the Creator of mankind. He has already prepared for us to be with Him once our life here on earth is over.

Unlike any other idol or god, Jesus rose from the dead just like He promised he would. “Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. Whoever believes in me, though he die, yet shall he live,” John 11:25

One day I was told the story of Jesus. That day as I prayed, I believed in my heart that what I was hearing was true. Jesus is the bondage breaker and takes away the bondage of sins and sorrows that plague our lives. There is no other prescription for change than the one Jesus has already written.


He walks with me and He talks with me, He tells me I am His own.
He lives inside of me!

“That you may know what is the hope to which he has called you, what are the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and what is the immeasurable greatness of his power toward us who believe, according to the working of his great might that he worked in Christ when he raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly places, far above all rule and authority and power and dominion, and above every name that is named, not only in this age but also in the one to come.” Eph. 1:18-21

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Help! I’ve Been Arrested!

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I was recently traveling and had just pulled into a McDonalds to take a bathroom break.  I had been praying and listening to the radio all morning. During this past season I’ve been alone a lot except for when I’m doing ministry or helping someone in crisis or trauma. I also love being a road warrior because it is during these times that God gives me nuggets to chew on and even whole chapters of my book I’m writing.

There are times more often than not recently that I desperately miss and cherish the family and friends that are so important to me.  So I drive along and pray for those that I can’t see, touch or feel. It is in these times I also realize how important I am to my heavenly Father and that He does miss me when I get too busy or neglect my time with Him.

I know there are things the Lord wants me to do, but more so He wants me to be honest with Him and with myself.  This discipline really takes me getting into a quiet place and trusting Him. In order to increase my faith, He has been stretching me it seems like in every area of my life!

The Lord has ALWAYS come through and has ALWAYS been faithful.  The older and grayer I get my weak knees grow weary on waiting and then that devil of fear and anxiousness try to drown out God’s voice. It just so happened that Adrian Rogers was teaching on one of my favorite scriptures.

We Will Be Saved Out of This World
1 Peter 1:7-9 says, “That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ. Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now ye see Him not, yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory: Receiving the end of your faith, even the salvation of your souls.”

He spoke on God’s refining fire and how everything in us will be tested at times. I know from experience when I feel anxious, useless, unproductive, and lonely that seems to be the exact time God allows Satan to test my faith.

“Lord let me be content not doing or seeing anything.” I then heard Him speak softly to my spirit, You don’t have to do anything for my favor or love, just be with Me and follow Me. I love you. Rest… I’ve arrested you!

Right after I came out out of the bathroom and was just pulling out of McDonalds, I looked down and my phone was ringing. Now I happen to have an app on my phone that tells callers that I can’t answer because I am in my car driving. I was surprised at it ringing.

At first glance it was an unknown number and I honestly thought it must be another solicitor trying to sell me an auto warranty. Mind you I have over 230,000 miles on my car and the only warranty is the one My heavenly Father provides! Recently this even got tested when several “alert” lights came on! But, need I say, even whenever I get arrested by the warning lights; God is and always will be my provider.

I looked again and saw the name Lemoine, and pulled back into the parking space at Mcdonalds. Beverly is another minister I had met two years earlier at our fellowship conference. She lives and works in Mississippi and has an outreach ministry named Come As You Are. The first thing she said, “Marlene this is Beverly Lemoine, do you remember me? Your name and face came across my mind like one of those electronic signs! How would you like to go to Tanzania with me next year and help with an international women’s conference?”

I think I was just arrested!

So, the exciting news is we will be doing a Freedom PowWow and will be ministering next May 2019 for three weeks to women and pastor’s wives in Tanzania Africa.

I will be sending out more details as they come in but I am asking for help in making this conference great for these women! We are writing a five-day curriculum and already have 200 New Testaments donated that are in Swahili.

In the meantime I’m being led to find a place to study, pray and write. I have a couple of places in mind, but I’m waiting on the Lord to open up the perfect place. Please pray and agree with me that I will wait patiently!

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Searching for God’s Treasures,

Marlene

Marlene has been called to go and serve others
wherever God calls her.

She combines teaching, prayer, worship with the prophetic, words of knowledge and wisdom to bring salvation, deliverance & healing to those who are lost, hurting helping each other prepare for ruling and reigning with the MOST HIGH GOD!

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Cinderella Released

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The Seating Chart Has Changed!

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“There is neither Jew nor Gentile, neither slave nor free, nor is there male or female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.” Galatians 3:28  Historian Thomas Cahill says that this scripture was the first statement of egalitarianism in human literature.

Over two thousand years ago a man named Jesus changed the seating charts forever! It doesn’t matter where you were born, if you have royal blood, work on a plantation, or own many towers.

And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace, expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus. Ephesians 2:6-7

John Ortberg  in his book Who Is This Man? writes,

“In the ancient world, slavery was universal. Unlike later slavery in America (England*), it had virtually nothing to do with one’s race. It could happen to anyone — and often did. Although conditions varied somewhat, slaves generally had little dignity or worth. A slave was non habens personam before Roman law, literally “not having a person” or even “not having a face.” Roman masters literally held the power of life and death over slaves. The slaves had no court of appeal. The slaves’ pain was so lightly regarded that when they were called to testiy, torture could be applied as a matter of course. Beathings and kickings were usually not given to free children precisely because such forms of punishment were reserved for slaves.

In the early church, a slave might wander in and have one of the masters — one of the rich and powerful — get down on his knees, take a basin and a towel, and wash the feet of one regarded as a non-person by the law. The Didascalia Apostolorum, an early church order, instructed bishops not to interrupt a service to greet a wealthy person of high rank who entered late. But if a poor man or woman entered the assembly, the bishop was to do whatever was needed to welcome them in, even if it meant the bishop were to end up seating on the floor. The seating chart was changing.”

Then and now – not much has changed when it comes to atrocities:

“The Great Slave Auction”. Amongst the slaves and their descendants it also went by another, more evocative name, “The Weeping Time” — an allusion to the incessant rains that poured from start to finish, seen as heaven weeping, and also, no doubt, to the tears of the families ripped apart. Although the organisers said they’d not break up families, it soon proved a hollow promise. Read More Below

What Became of the Slaves on A Georgia Plantation

Red Alert – Happening Right Now

On my recent return from China, I met a man from Bangladesh that I wrote about in one of my newsletters. He has family, I’m not certain what city. The article below is what is happening in Bangladesh.

 

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Please pray for “K’s” family

 

Nicaragua Needs Our Prayers Too!

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“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

There is no reason to fear if we hold fast to the ONE whom has rescued our souls. We can rejoice knowing that Jesus has overcome the world and all of the evil doers and powers who oppose Him. Because of Jesus, God has changed the seating charts in the heavenlies.

Please continue to pray for the people of Rohingya, Nicaragua, China, the U.S. and especially those whom are called to the harvest fields in these places. We must hold fast to pray against Satan and his reign of terror and evil in this hour.

Searching for God’s Treasures,

Marlene

Marlene has been called to go and serve others
wherever God calls her.

She combines teaching, prayer, worship with the prophetic, words of knowledge and wisdom to bring salvation, deliverance & healing to those who are lost, hurting helping each other prepare for ruling and reigning with the MOST HIGH GOD!

acceleration me
from ashes to beauty…
Cinderella Released

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I Now Can See The Colors in A Crystal

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I recently met for brunch with a highschool friend.  A couple of times during the past ten years she has felt compelled to reach out to me and we were finally able to connect. Once you read her story you will understand like I do now, that she is a product of our God who is so merciful to those who are in capivitiy and His desire is for our freedom.

She was rescued and released from a life full of heartache and torment.  God, has released her to a very happy ending… Below is her Cinderella Released story:

I Now Can See The Colors In A Crystal – Janice Conley
shared with her permission

Sharing my story with others is something I always hoped I would do. When I felt like I was losing control of my mind, ending up in ICU from an overdose and ending up in a psychiatric unit twice at two different hospitals, I could not imagine anyone being encouraged by my testimony!

As we all know there is a stigma attached to mental illness. 19 years ago I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. This brain disorder causes severe mood changes, elevated activity and extreme anxiety. People with this condition experience episodes of heightened energy followed by low energy and depression. The depression can last for weeks, months or even years. This is part of who I am today. I am not ashamed of it and I don’t let it define me or get in the way of living life. With the help of God, my husband, my family, my therapist, my psychiatrist and my close friends, I have learned to manage this illness. It takes a village!

I grew up in Sanford, Florida and accepted a job with a family owned business at the age of 22. This company was exactly where I needed to be. I received support and understanding from the owners and my co-workers during my difficult days. Early on, no one including myself, understood my illness.  Being in a supportive environment and feeling accepted and loved is critical to healing. I worked 30 years for this company. 22 of those years I was in a management position. I have always believed in God, however, during my teenage years and career I did not have a personal relationship with Jesus. Looking back, I see His hand in everything.

Due to manic highs and depressive lows, life can be chaotic with bipolar disorder. Often times relationships and careers are destroyed because of the irrational behavior that is displayed. This illness is often misunderstood by family, friends and co-workers. It is common for those who suffer to deny they have it or to resist treatment. I desperately wanted to feel mentally healthy and it took 11 years of determination and persistence to find the right help. My life is so different now that I have learned to manage it with correct medications and occasional therapy.

At the age of 32, during my first marriage, we built a house. During the construction process I became stressed, not sleeping and filled with anxiety. I felt like I was losing control of my mind. I made an appointment with my family physician who referred me to my first psychiatrist.

She diagnosed me with anxiety and depression and prescribed an antidepressant. When there was no improvement she prescribed another set of medications. These medications didn’t work so I quit taking them. For the next 11 years I felt anxious, depressed and empty, I knew there was something terribly wrong with me. My world was black and my spirit was dark. In sharing my concerns with family and friends, no one understood.

During this difficult time a friend invited me to church. Worshipping in a Pentecostal church was very different from my Lutheran background. It was there at the age of 34 that I walked the aisle to accept Jesus as my Lord and Savior. However, I did not grow as a Christian at that time. Due to the nature of my illness, I struggled with sadness, negative thoughts and difficulty focusing. “Negative thoughts deplete your faith, your energy and your enjoyment for life.” (Joel Osteen) It took all of my energy to just get by day to day.

At the age of 37 I divorced my first husband. I continued seeking counseling, hoping with each therapist my quality of life would improve. I was on and off medications during this time and nothing seemed to take away the depressed, anxioius empty feelings. Some days were more tolerable than others but I knew that people were not supposed to feel this way. I became frustrated. I was persistent in searching for help but couldn’t find the help that I needed.

One of my best friends, Cheryl, asked me if I could see the colors in a crystal. I explained to her that I could not see the colors in a crystal. Everything in my life was dull. She had never had a depressed day in her life so she could not understand the feelings that come with depression. I explained that in the morning when I opened my eyes I felt a gray cloud over me. This gray cloud followed me throughout the day. I would smile and laugh on the outside but I was dying on the inside. My only relief was sleeping. This was not the way I wanted to live my life.

At the age of 42 my life became intolerable. I felt alone and desperate. I did something totally out of character. I went to dinner at a diner by myself and sat on a stool at the counter hoping to meet someone. The only person who acknowledge my presence was the server. I left feeling more alone and desperate. That evening I made a very serious attempt to take my life with pain pills (prescribed for dental work) and alcohol. Fortunately, when I did not show up for work the next day a friend/co-worker had a concern and dame to my home. I was rushed to the emergency room. I spent nine days in the hospital. Four of those days in ICU in a coma. Three days in a regular room and two days in the psychiatric unit.

After I was released from the hospital my mind and body were fragile. Every aspect of my life was rocky, however I knew I had to walk back into my life. I had to face family, friends and co-workers and try to put the pieces back together. It was not easy but I knew this had to be done. Most everyone was understanding and supportive which allowed me to begin to heal.

I finally realized to have a good life I needed to be mentally healthy. To manage mental illness there are two types of doctors needed. A psychologist for counseling and a psychiatrist to prescribe medications. At this point, a team was crucial for me so I found a team that I felt comfortable with. As a signle working girl, I knew this was going to be expensive. My insurance plan covered medication but not therapy sessions. I also realized it was important for me to establish a relationship with these doctors early on so that they will be readily available to me when I needed them. Even though it was expensive, I comitted to weekly therapy sessions. This was an important step to getting my life back on track.

A manic or depressive episode can occur without warning at any time and at any age. Sometimes during an episode I need the help of my doctors. It is important to have a relatlionship established to get an immediate appointment. One could wait up to a month to get in to see a doctor. Even in my later years I will need to keep a relatlionship with my doctors current.

A year after my suicide attempt, I had a manic episode that left me feeling totally out of control. I believed I was making a movie about my life. This movie was to help others with bipolar disorder. My friend, Hamp who is now my husband, came over for an early morning jog. I suggested we have coffee and visit instead of jogging. I had a sleepless night and my energy level was heightened so he knew something was wrong. When he left my home, he called Cheryl and asked her to check on me. As soon as she saw me she knew something was terribly wrong. My behavior was totally out of character. Hamp returned to my home. My conversation that morning was focused on the movie that was to be made. I had not been diagnosed with bipolar disorder so this conversation alarmed them. They called my family in. While we were all together, Hamp called my therapist. She said that I was not the person she had counseled the past year and I needed to go immediately to the psychiatric unit of the hospital. She said if I would not agree to go call the police to escort me. It was imperative that I be admitted that day. This was my second stay in a psychiatric unit.

This manic episode was the turning point which allowed my therapist and psychiatrist to correctly diagnose me with bipoloar disorder. It is not uncommon for a correct diagnosis to take many years, sometimes decades. For 11 years I was diagnosed incorrectly and was prescribed wrong medication. It was a relief to finally get a diagnosis. I currently take two medications. The combination works well for me.  I have been on these now for 19 years. In the beginning I had a few side effects but they went away after a little while. The only lasting side effect was some weight gain. Correct medications have made a huge difference for me. I realized early on how important it is to take my pills daily. I accept that I will be on medication for the rest of my life. The pills help balance my moods and provide me with a mentally healthy lifestyle.

Even though I am on the right medications, I will occasionally get out of balance. It is important to have a good support system. When I begin to experience a manic episode, my husband can see a change in my eyes. Once I recognize my elevated mood, I meediately adjust my medications before my life spins out of control. To his day, when I am in a manic state my sense of urgency to help others by sharing my story becomes my main focus. Together Hamp and I have learned to manage these episodes. He is always there to watch my back when my world gets rocky. My life will continue to get rocky at times and it is comforting to know he is always looking out for my best interest.

Mos of us have famlily members or friends who suffer from a mental illness. If you know someone who has been diagnosed with a mental illness be sympathetic and understanding and know that it is challenging for them. Signs of the illness can occur at any time and without warning. With each episode I experience, I learn more about how to manage my change in moods and stay in control.

With therapy, prayer and reading books on healing I have been able to work through most of my issues, including child sexual abuse. I finally feel whole! I have seen God’s goodness in amazing ways. He has richly blessed my life with a loving, supportive husband and family.

In 2010 we became part of a wonderful church family. This is when I began my relationship with Jesus. I now look back on my life and see God’s hand in everything. He brought me out of the dark days into the brighter days. When your life is dark, know that it is temporary. In His time, He will bring you back into the light. The sun will shine bright again for you someday. Do not lose hope. Isaiah 40:31 “But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow wearly, they will walk and not faint”.

God is a God of second chances and it is by His grace that I am alive today. My life is rich and full of His many blessings. This awareness is new to me and I feel like I have been born again! I am trusting God to lead my path. Proverbs 3:6 “In all of your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.” My part is learning to trust Him.

I love sharing my story because I believe God will use it so that others ………..can see the colors in a crystal.

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Janice has a program and visits churches with others who have been rescued from bi-polar disorder. If you would like to connect with her please email me at CinderellaReleased@gmail.com.

 

 

 

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Twins! The Struggle Between the Flesh and Spirit

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“The Lord said to her,

Two nations are in your womb, and two peoples from within you will be separated; one people will be stronger than the other, and the older will serve the younger.”

John Morgon, Pastor of Family Christian Center in Chicago spoke today at Faith Life Church about twins.  An eye opening message which was about the struggle between the flesh (soul) and the spirit.

The culture of grace and faith is what was given to Jacob after he tricked his father in order to obtain the birthright and blessing which God had already promised him long before he was ever born.  Isn’t that the way we are sometimes?  We try to work for or manipulate God to give us what He has already promised…long before we ever even ask about it.

John made the amazing point when God had spoken to Rebekah after she became pregnant after being barren for twenty years.  She wanted to know what was going on inside of her, why the war… God told her two cultures were there, two nations, something that was so much bigger than she could hope for or imagine.  Rebekah was worried about being barren, but God had already set in motion the seed long before Rebekah was ever in the picture.  It is sad for me to think about this story.

John pointed out how Isaac loved Esau because he was a hunter and he loved his food, while the Scripture simply says, Rebekah loved Jacob.  No reason except she simply loved him. God gave His only son, simply because He loved us…not for any reason or thing we have done.  We must simply sit in His presence in order to receive His love.

Esau worked to gain his father’s love, while Jacob simply sat in his mother’s presence and received it.  God had already promised to give

24 When the time came for her to give birth, there were twin boys in her womb. 25 The first to come out was red, and his whole body was like a hairy garment; so they named him Esau.[d]26 After this, his brother came out, with his hand grasping Esau’s heel; so he was named Jacob.[e] Isaac was sixty years old when Rebekah gave birth to them.

The war continued and Jacob fled fearing his life.  He never saw his mother again, nor his father.  Thankfully, he did make amends with his brother.

The culture of grace, John says, “Grace is done…we don’t have to do.”  John Morgan helps build churches and is a pastor, teacher, evangelist and mentor. Visit his website at http://johnmorgancommunications.com