Suicides are most prominent in Asia and Eastern Europe. Lithuania has the highest suicide rate among the countries for which we have data, with 28.6 suicide deaths per 100,000 people, followed closely by South Korea with 26.3 deaths per 100,000 people. ~ Article dated April 2014
Below is a letter from Cindy, Kara’s mother to Kara’s Quilt recipients (used with her permission):
Kara was a sweet, compassionate, thoughtful, quiet person who wanted to help troubled teens work through the hurts and pains of life and live the life God intended them to live. She was trying to work her way through college before she died at the young age of 26. Her dreams were cut short.
A year or two before Kara died she told me that a high school boy friend raped her at a party. She explained how scared she was and how she tried to fight him off her and how he overpowered her. She screamed for someone to help her. No one came to her aid. She lived with that secret for six years.
She started to drink at that time. I didn’t put the pieces together why the change in life style. Through out the years of partying she made choices that she wasn’t proud of and shared how she was haunted by the guilt and shame. The last year of her life Kara was in a lot of turmoil. She started cutting and was terrified that she was harming herself. We wanted her to get help, but she didn’t want to be a burden to us. She was never a burden, we wanted to help, she insisted on trying AA.
Kara made the choice to end her pain.
I cried out to God to show me what my baby girl was feeling that she could end her life. He did! He showed me Kara with a boulder the size of a house strapped on her back. Every step she made was fight as the burden was so heavy. Her burdens caused her to loose her footing, and she was flailing desperately to regain her footing again. The burden was guilt, shame, regret, hate that she hurt those she loved with her choices, abortion, drinking, sex, self hate, failed attempts at being what she wanted in life.
God showed me a picture of Kara standing on a scaffold in her body with a silver bucket filled with soapy water and holding scrub brush. As she frantically was scrubbing her heart, bubbles where every where, but the thick crud that covered her heart wasn’t coming off. She climbed and scrubbed her brain in the same way to no avail.
God spoke and said, “Only by the washing of My Word can a heart and mind be cleaned!”
I want to put my arms around every one who is in such a vulnerable place and tell them,
“If you are contemplating suicide as your escape from the the burdens that have caused you to lose your emotional footing;
“First, Suicide is extremely serious and tragic in God’s eyes, I beg you to reconsider and seek help for what is your burden is made of: what thoughts and feelings that are haunting you. God loves you and He does not want you to end your life.
Second, Satan does, however want you to end your life. You must not listen to him. Ask God for help, call the suicide hot line (1-800-273-8255), talk to a Pastor, a counselor, or a friend who can help lead you in the right direction. Your life matters to me.”
Your life matters to God,
Cindy, Kara’s Mother
If you know someone is struggling with life here are a few warning signs:
Signs and symptoms of teen depression
- Sadness or hopelessness.
- Irritability, anger, or hostility.
- Tearfulness or frequent crying.
- Withdrawal from friends and family.
- Loss of interest in activities.
- Poor school performance.
- Changes in eating and sleeping habits.
While I was in Alaska, most every person I counseled with had battled with a spirit of suicide, or had lost a family or friend to suicide. It is a painful subject and there is a deception that if we don’t talk about it, it will go away or maybe it won’t come near us. This is a lie, we need to talk about it. Spirits of suicide, fear, doubt, unbelief and oppression are real.
I know there are many struggling this time of year. I too, struggle this time of year, especially when I am away from my loved ones.
If this is you, or you know someone who is battling with hopelessness, pain, and fear I want to hear from you, so I can add you to my prayer book and pray for you!
My cell is (850)-661-6104. My email is CinderellaReleased@gmail.com.
Whatever you do, please listen to the Lord’s voice and then do what He says, as unto Him. May He get all the glory!
He has done such great things in our lives.
Searching for God’s treasure,
From ashes to beauty
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